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5 Things The Adult Child Of An Addict Understands So Well

5 Things The Adult Child Of An Addict Understands So Well

A lot of adults today may look back at their childhood with fond memories of playing with friends, going on trips with their families, and basically living a stress free childhood. Most don’t look back at stressful memories of having to take care of their brother or sister overnight because mom “was stuck at work” when she really had to stay the night in jail for a DUI. They don’t remember the need to get themselves ready for school or make their own meals, since daddy had been sleeping on the couch all day and night because “he was working really hard”–when actually he was passed out after a cocaine or heroin binge.

Growing up with a parent who’s an addict is a tough road. Learning to take care of yourself and your parents at a young age is something that no child should have to do, but it’s reality for many.

The silver lining to this is that according to research from groups like “Children of Alcoholics” and “Children of Substance Abusers”, roughly 75% of adults who grew up in a home of addicts are able to overcome adversity, and not get involved with the lifestyle that their parents have. Unfortunately, as these kids grow to become adults, the pain and memories still affect them even years after the problem of the addiction of their parents has passed.

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If you never dealt with this growing up, maybe this can help you understand what it’s like. And if you did have addict parents, please know that you weren’t alone.

As adult children of addicts:

We are always worried.

Regardless of whether our parents went through rehab and have been clean for years, we are always worried about the possibility of a relapse. If our parents are still known addicts, many of us have decided to not let them come around anymore. Even though we are over dealing with them directly, we still love and care about them, and pray every night that they are okay. There is also always the worry: What if it happens to me?

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For some that just seems irrational, but for us it’s a part of everyday life.

We are controlling (without realizing it).

We feel like now that we are adults, we have the strength to control everything that surrounds us, and we can keep those bad things from coming into our lives. From the outside looking in, you may see this as us not wanting to listen or not wanting to compromise, but that is never the intention.

We just try to keep everything going good and that’s the only way we know how.

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We constantly seek approval.

This bugs the heck out of those whom we seek approval from. We do not have a lot of self esteem, and we have been lied to a lot in the past, so we need to be certain that you are sincere when you tell us that “Yes, I think that it would be a good idea to change your major”, or “Yes, you should buy that new car”.

We know these are little things to you, but we need to hear from others that we are making the right decision on everything.

We define “normal” differently than you.

Our normal usually consists of constant disappointment, fear, and uncertainty. My normal was having to go to grandma’s after school, because my dad had gotten caught stealing DVD’s to sell so he could buy more drugs. And then having to stay at Mom’s for a few months because Dad had to stay in jail for a while.

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All of this may sound really absurd. But to me (and many others), this was how we grew up.

We had no peace in our childhoods.

No matter how we look at it, we can’t seem to find happiness in a situation. Rather, we see lessons learned. When we try to look back and seek out some joy, it is almost instantly plagued by betrayal, or some other let down. We are constantly plagued by repressed memories and we will never be able to forget it.

If you didn’t grow up with addicted parents, please try and understand us. And if you did, remember:

We’ll find a way to get through it.

Featured photo credit: https://pixabay.com/en/users/RyanMcGuire-123690/ via pixabay.com

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Last Updated on September 17, 2018

7 Signs of an Unhappy Relationship That Makes You Feel Stuck

7 Signs of an Unhappy Relationship That Makes You Feel Stuck

Relationships are complicated and when you’re unhappy, it can be difficult to tell what’s causing it and what needs to change.

Sometimes it’s as easy as opening up to your partner about your problems, while other times it may be necessary to switch partners or roll solo to get your mind straight.

When you’re in the thick of things, it can be difficult to tell if you’re unhappy in your relationship or just unhappy in general (in which case, a relationship may be just the cure you need).

Here’re signs of an unhappy relationship that is possibly making you feel stuck:

1. You’re depressed about your home life.

No matter what you do in life, you’re going to have good and bad days. Your relationship is no different.

However, no matter what you’re going through at home, you have to feel comfortable in your own home.

If you constantly dread going home because your significant other is there, there’s a problem. Maybe it’s something you already know about, everyone has an argument or just needs some alone time.

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When that yearning to be alone becomes an insatiable obsession over the course of months and years, it’s time to realize you’re not the exception to the rule.

You’re unhappy in your relationship, and you need to take a look in the mirror and do whatever it takes to make yourself smile.

2. You aren’t comfortable being yourself.

Remember all those things you discovered about yourself when you first got together? The way your partner made you feel when you met that made you fall in love with him or her in the first place.

If they don’t make you feel that way anymore, it’s not the end of the world. If your partner makes you uncomfortable about being you, then her or she is only dragging you down. It’s up to you to decide how to handle that.

You need to be comfortable with who you are. This means being comfortable in your skin and with the way you walk, talk, look, breath, move, and all the other things that make you uniquely you.

If the person who supposedly loves you doesn’t make you feel good about yourself, know that you can do better. They’re not even one in a billion.

3. You can’t stop snooping.

Mutual trust is necessary in any relationship. The only way to get that trust is with respect.

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I can find you anywhere online, no matter how private and secure you think you are. The odds of you having a password I can’t crack are slim. If we’ve met in person, I could install a remote key logger on your device without even touching it.

Finding your information online hardly takes a clandestine organization. Any idiot with a Wi-Fi-enabled device can cyberstalk you. I’m just the only idiot in the village admitting it.

So now that we know everyone snoops, it’s time to address your personal habits. Governments snoop because they don’t trust us. If you’re snooping on your partner, it’s because you don’t trust them.

It’s ok to have doubts, and it’s perfectly normal to look into anything that looks weird, but keep in mind that data collection is only half of an investigation.

If you find yourself constantly snooping and questioning everything, clearly there’s a trust issue and the relationship likely needs to end.

4. You’re afraid of commitment.

If you’ve been dating longer than a year and you aren’t engaged, it’s never going to happen.

Commitment is important. People will come up with a million ways to describe why they can’t be committed.

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No matter who you are if you like it, you need to put a ring on it. Find an engagement ring, stick a gemstone in it and marry the person. If you’re not legally able to get married or you don’t believe in it for one reason or another, have a child (or adopt one, however you’re able to) or treat your partner’s family like your own. It’s a huge financial and mental commitment.

If you’re not ready for one or the other after some time, don’t waste anymore of your precious life on the relationship.

Your relationship should be something that propels you forward. If it’s not going anywhere, make it an open relationship and call it what it is—dating multiple people.

5. You imagine a happier life without your partner.

If all you’re doing is imagining a happier life without your partner, it’s a sign that you’re in the wrong relationship. You’re unhappy and you need to get out.

Your partner should be included in your dreams. There’s nothing wrong with wanting a future with someone.

Try to remember what you dreamed of before you got your heart broken by the realities of life, love and the pursuit of human success.

Remember when you would crush on that cute kid in class? You would secretly imagine marrying him or her and going on an adventure—that’s the way life should be.

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If you’re not at least imagining adventures together, then why are you in that relationship?

6. You resent, rather than love your partner.

When a relationship starts to crumble, you begin to resent your partner for all the things you once loved about him or her.

When you’ve reached this point, your partner has reached at least No. 2 on this list. From your partner’s perspective, your unhappiness with them is picked up as bashing them for being who they are.

If you’re both unhappy in the relationship, it’s better if it ends as quickly and painlessly as possible.

7. You chase past feelings.

It’s okay to reminisce about the past, but if all you do is wish things were like they used to be, it’s a sign you’re not on the right path.

You’re unhappy and, at the very least, you need to have an open dialogue about it. This isn’t necessarily a sign that the relationship should end, but it definitely needs a spark.

When you talk to your partner candidly about what it is you’re looking for, you never know how they’ll react. The risk alone is worth it, good or bad.

Final thoughts

If you’re feeling stuck in your current relationship, it’s time to reflect about it with your partner. Don’t ignore these signs of an unhappy relationship as they will slowly go worse and harm both you and your partner in long-term.

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